And so my journey has begun....

One month ago I ordered p90x!!  I was ready to make a major change in my life, needed to make a major change!!

Let me go back before we go forward.  I have always been active, loved to work out, and was pretty good at watching my weight & had a range I was comfortable in.  18 months ago a knee injury & surgery sidelined me for a long time.

Then in December 2012, my oldest brother died unexpectedly at the age of 48.  He was not just my brother, he was my best friend.  We spoke on the phone everyday, sometimes several times a day.  And suddenly, he was gone.  Taken from me way too early.  I was devastated and my world was turned upside down.  In the weeks and months that followed, food became my constant comfort.  I ate crap all day, every day.  I gained 40 lbs in just a few short months.  I was so depressed that I had no motivation to work out or do anything else for that matter.  I was miserable!!!!

In August 2013, we went to Minnesota to spread my brother's ashes and say our final goodbyes.  While, very emotional , it was also a huge relief!!  I felt like it was time to move forward and stop wallowing in sadness!!

The first thing I needed to do,had to do, was change my eating and find an exercise program that I would like and would give me great results.  Enter P90x!!  I have completed 3 weeks of it and feel awesome!!!  I already feel stronger!!  And for the first time ever, I view food as fuel for my body, not as a comfort!!

It hasn't been easy!  I had to make a commitment.  On days that I work, I am up at 3:50am to get my workout in before work.  Otherwise, it wouldn't get done.  On other days I "sleep in" until 5:30, get my workout done, and then get Kari up for school.  I don't have time to workout, I make time to workout.  I have so much more energy and starting my day off with a workout motivates me to eat healthy all day!

This journey is not just about losing weight and getting in shape.  It is about getting my life back.  Finding me, and more importantly who I am without my brother/best friend.  Reminding myself every day that I AM STRONG mentally & physically.  I am finding joy and peace in my life and trying to overcome the sadness and pain.  Getting back into my jeans is just a bonus 😊

So if you find any of this story familiar or feel stuck, join me on this journey.  Find your exercise groove, challenge yourself, set some goals.  Most importantly, take that first step.  I'm glad I did.

Ready for this journey???  Leave me a message if you need help finding your direction!  You can do this!!!

Until next time.....